Category mental health

how to be okay when you are not okay

“Something is wrong. Something’s been wrong.” The text made me sit up straight on my bed, dreading. No no no, don’t say it, I thought. Don’t be depressed. You don’t need that. You don’t deserve that. You deserve happiness! And sunshine! Butterflies flying a cosmic duet with unicorns! But bright, shiny good wishes can’t stop […]

of fear and longing (at Story Sessions)

My dorm room was quiet, one fluorescent bulb flickering lightly, the heater on full blast against the drudging cold rain. It was a bad semester, the worst. There were memories I didn’t want and jello-thick depression and more tears in a month than in all the rest of my life before. There were fights late […]

when the rivers run with ice

When the rivers run with ice, I feel it in my bones. It feels like grief. Like a gasping for breath. A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices                                           For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn Some days are heavy. Some days need scraped away like windshield frost. Some days come […]

when the winter comes with rain

When the winter comes with rain, I greet it with eyes open, marveling at each puddle. I embrace the banks of fog distorting, no, enchanting the still-green earth. I like chubby clouds and the weighty atmosphere before a downpour and glitter-dropped Douglas firs after. And Christmas — oh yes, Christmas: that promise of tinsel nights […]

Feeling depressed? Here, take this bad advice

It was close to midnight a few weeks into my senior year at university. I was looking at my planner – the one I’d decoupaged and filled out at the bright hopeful beginning of the semester – looking at the deadlines listed, but not caring. This wasn’t like me. Sure, during my previous fifteen years […]